How many times have you felt stuck in your life? How many times have you felt that you were almost there, only to find yourself in an even worse place than where you started?
It’s like working on a story for 2 years and realising that the ending is lame, like it happened to me a year ago when I was writing the sequel to Across Spacetime. Or your failing health preventing you to make plans for the future. Or job hunting and nothing shows up. Or burning with the desire to start a family with your soulmate and life circumstances keep the two of you apart. Over and over again.
I’ve noticed that this usually happens to me when I am trying too hard to achieve the result in the way I think I should achieve it.
Sometimes not seeing a solution doesn’t mean there isn’t one. Sometimes it only means that other things must fall into place before we can achieve our goal because doing a beeline from A to E is not what we need for our personal and spiritual evolution. And so Life diverts us to C and stops us there. Or it thrusts us back to A. We feel lost, stuck, and determined to tear down the Heavens if we don’t get it our way.
What if we chose to consider these roadblocks as blessings in disguise instead? Like you dear Seeker, I’ve suffered many a setback and used to go mad when that happened. However, whenever I let go of my expectations regarding a result, and allowed myself to go with the flow of life, I ended up with something better than I had anticipated. Yes, it’s not easy. It takes a lot of practice to let go of our deep need for a sense of control. Life makes sure we have plenty of training though.
Sometimes, going with the flow actually means staying still, allowing things to blossom, come to fruition. Staying still allows us to take a look round, ponder different outcomes so when the occasion arises, we’re ready to grab it.
For example, in the case of the sequel, I put it on a side for a few months, jotting down ideas and letting my mind work in the background. It took me an extra few months to come up with an ending that satisfied me, but I got there and did lots of other things in the meantime.
As for my health, it’s been 20 years since my muscle problems began. This has forced me to re-evaluate my priorities and the meaning of success; and choose a path that has eventually brought me to writing.
As for the job hunt, I have used these months to gauge the labour market and find out in which capacity I can be of service to others to the best of my abilities.
As for my love life, I’m at a crossroads. Just another one of many. Will I be able to follow my own advice?
I can hardly believe that a whole year has flown by since I had my first radio interview. Where did time go? Let's find out.
The launch of Across Spacetime took up the first three months of 2017. It was an exhausting and rewarding experience. What I liked the most was definitely the radio interviews because I had to push my boundaries well beyond my comfort zone and I felt empowered. The waiting for the first interviews was nerve-wracking but I was lucky to have kind and experienced hosts who put me at ease straight away.
Finishing the manuscript of the sequel to Across Spacetime is one of the achievements I’m most proud of. It took me more time than I had anticipated because I was unhappy with the ending. Editing it could take another month or so as I’m busy with other projects, like looking for a job.
As my daughter is in secondary school this year (and therefore is more independent) and my health has greatly improved, I've decided to go back to the labour market. I love writing but I’ve been feeling a bit lonely lately. And a work environment can help me with fresh ideas for my pieces :-).
I must confess that at times I felt uneasy when promoting Across Spacetime last year, as it is a science fiction love story based on how I had met the man who was divorcing me.
Now I'm in a far better place. All the emotional turmoil is over, in a few months I'll be a divorcée and I’m ready to welcome a new love in my life. But that's another story.
It looks like even 2018 will be a busy and important year in my life. I welcome it!
And you dear Seeker, what are you looking forward to this year?